Monday, May 29, 2006

Kickin' it at The Ted

Current mood: hot

Memorial Day - the 2nd of the 3-day-weekends for 2006. It's the end of May and therefore very hot in the ATL. So why, why, why did I agree to go to a baseball game at 1pm today? Just stupid, I guess.

Here we have the basic problem of wanting to spend time with friends, wanting to go watch my Braves play (and drool over the Baby Braves - just a nickname, folks) but wanting to do it in a cool and air-conditioned environment...great planning, huh?

I cannot complain too much - as we really did have fun. Once the sun passed behind us, we were in the shade and there was a nice breeze some of the time. The problem was that the Braves played like CRAP!

Luckily, I did get to see a friend that I had not seen in a long time (this means you, Yancey!) and I wasn't the only one making a fool of myself yelling at the field (ummm, YB - that means YOU!). Dani toughed it out to spend the time with us all - way to go, chica! I have some great friends and am very lucky.

So here is what I have decided...and some of you may already have figured this out...I'm going to stop stressing about finding "someone." Everytime I figure out that I am going to just focus on living my life, I end up finding someone great to spend time with (as just friends or more). So - here is me ceasing the stressing. Maybe you just have to get your brain out of that place that causes concern and just RELAX!

I have a very busy June in store for me (can it be July now?!), including a trip to India that I really starting to wish I weren't taking. On the positive end, I do get to see my niece and nephew the week before...maybe they can get me through!

As for other thoughts here, I have to say that good friends are great, but great friends are even better. Shannon - you truly made my day today and you make me feel worthy :) If any of you have the pleasure of being friends with someone who speaks so highly of you that you want to be an even better person - that friend is gold. Make sure you live up to their praise - every day!

Did I mention it's 90-degrees in the shade here?!


Currently listening:
Let Love In
By The Goo Goo Dolls
Release date: By 25 April, 2006

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Nothing to Lose

Current mood: rejuvenated


Change...it sucks, but sometimes it can open your eyes to what you are missing in life. Pardon me while I wax profound here - but maybe it isn't me talking.

A lot of things have been changing over the last year - loss of a friend, death of a grandmother, birth of a nephew, and recently, shake ups at work.

It's been a trying time for me - trying to keep my positive outlook, no matter what life throws at me - but I find myself being more emotionally tied to things...I'm not sure this is a bad thing, though.

I guess all you can say is, if I come out still standing, I am a stronger person for all the pain, agony, tough times, etc. Isn't that all that really matters? How do you perform when the chips are down? Do you stay true to yourself while the world falls to crap around you? Are you a better person when you come out the other side?

I would have to say YES to all of the above. While I don't feel that I am as happy about a lot of things that I have been in the past (okay, most have been beyond my control), I think I am still okay - this makes me feel stronger as a human being.

If I have changed, I feel it is for the better. And my newest work challenges haven't made it easy on me, but I feel that I am up to the task. And ultimately, if I am not able to deal with the new environment, then I have a cushy 8-weeks paid vacation/sabbatical waiting for me on the other side.

I could chuck it all and move back to San Francisco - where my heart truly is - but I won't go down without a fight. Besides, I think these challenges may prove to make me more of an asset in any work environment.

Personally, I am not where I thought I would be. I figured I would be some high-falootin' sports photographer in demand and making a decent living (and maybe attending a few fancy celebrity shin-digs) by now, or maybe I would be some world-renowned chef - a must have for any A-List party. Maybe I'll get there someday, but today I feel like I do make a difference where I work and I am respected and sought-out for help. It's my own kind of high-falootin'/world-renowned status, but you wouldn't know it if you talked to me...it's a whole world in my head.

So what's wrong with being in the corporate world - this world I never thought I would be a part of? Nothing! I have made really great friends, some excellent contacts and I am genuinely motivated to get out of bed each morning and go to work. So who cares if someone new comes in and shakes my world up like a snow-globe...Bring it on!

Now, it's time to attack the rest of my life with this attitude! Time to stop pushing the men away and stop flaking on friends. Time to do what I want to do and when I want to do it and to hell with those who make me feel less than worthy! Bite me, you bastards!

Whew...now I feel better!

Currently listening:
Garden State
By Various Artists
Release date: By 10 August, 2004

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Welcome to the Madness

Everyone - I now post on MySpace. For those of you NOT on MySpace, I will continue to post my blogs here as well!

Current mood: lethargic

So here I am, on MySpace. Such an odd place to be, but I guess it was inevitable.

I've had a blog for years, but I just haven't had time to post to it. I'll try and be better and post here now.

My friends and coworkers convinced me to jump on here finally, and I guess I had very little will power, since clearly I caved.

There isn't too much to say about me at this point, except I am pretty loopy at the moment. It has been a rough week that ended in pulled muscles and pinched nerves. Luckily, my doc prescribes the good drugs plus 48 hours minimum of bed rest (okay, those of you preparing to lecture me for sitting at my computer, I have been horizontal since 2am yesterday, so shhhh).

So far, this place is shaping up pretty nicely. I have found some old friends and some news ones - even people from elementary school! We'll see how this goes.

Nothing else to report...I'm off to lalaland for a good 12 hours of sleep in a pseudo-coma.

Happy Birthday, SarahBell!

Currently listening:
Paper Airplanes
By Marc Robillard
Release date: By 10 November, 2005

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Sorry for the delay!

Just a quickie to explain why I have not been posting. I broke my hand in January and it was too hard to type. I am finally back in the groove!